In all honesty, I am not sure where to begin. I cry while driving or sitting in restaurants and cafes. I feel my heart breaking and rebuilding. I am chaotic and serene. I find myself in serious contemplating. Today's quote on my Momentum tab is: “The struggle you're in today is developing the strength you need for tomorrow.”
My first solo travel adventure turned destination quarantine in Thailand has led and is still leading to many adventures and lessons learned. Beyond the usual lessons of 'what/what not to bring', 'how to prepare for long term solo travel', and destination guides, there have been invaluable things I've learned about myself and, in turn, the world during these few months. I'm so grateful to be able to dive deeper in my understanding of how I perceive myself and the environment around me and the people that have assisted in my expansion.
I remember the first flight I ever took alone: freshly 19, working a minimum wage job and purchased a 'Name Your Own Price' ticket off an online site headed out to the Wild Wild West Coast - California.
To be honest, I didn’t even realize that I had an eating disorder. If you asked me 10 years ago, I would have denied it. This body that I lived in was mine but also not mine. At first, it feels like sowing seeds in an infertile earth. Learning to cultivate tenderness for self esteem to grow in.
It is a fact that time, money and personal reserves are limited in some way. How much of that are you using to benefit your personal well-being?
