There’s something so beautiful about rooting in one space and watching my life unfold over time.
Today, as I came home, did an “everything shower” and rearranged my artwork in my apartment, I felt an immense sense like everything is finally coming together.
It’s much like any creative project. You start with a concept, work with it, go through all these feelings, sometimes some self-doubt, sometimes that feeling of ‘omg did I miss this up’?, or wondering if you made a mistake…and then you keep going and all of sudden it’s like the clouds part and the sun beams through and you feel that sense of clarity and like ‘OK! it’s clicking, I feel confident in what’s happening’.
And maybe it’s a microcosm – a metaphor for life. That even in those moments where you feel like you don’t know, you trust yourself enough to keep going and the faith gets you to this point of certainty that if you’ve made it this far, then you gotta keep going because if it gets this good, how much better can it get?
I’m not saying that there aren’t days where I don’t feel those all-too-human emotions and think those limiting thoughts…but I know that I’m learning and growing and changing. And overall…it’s pretty optimistic. And if I can do this, then I can do anything.
I’ve learned to appreciate the seasons of my life. I do miss traveling and bopping around but after a while, I was aimlessly wandering and really just avoiding taking aligned action towards what I really want.
And while I know my life’s desires will continuously change, grow and transform, I can appreciate where I am right now while knowing that there’s more to come.
It’s like eating an eight course meal. You’re super excited for dessert but you’re still grateful and enjoying course three or four or five with the eager anticipation of what’s next.
Life has taken me to so many spectacular adventures – big and small – and while I know many of us look forward to the Big Moments in life, it’s important to remember that it’s also the little joys in life that make up a really great one. It’s a cumulative process and not always just about the fireworks. But also about the fireworks, at the same time.
I’ve been meditating twice daily for about 17 days now and I feel much more centered, grounded and aligned. I’m really proud of this journey. The longest I’ve probably meditated consistently was in 2020 – when I traveled and did my 200 HR yoga teacher training – maybe something around 30 to 40 days. My goal is to make this a consistent life-long habit and I’m celebrating the milestones along the way.
It takes an average of 66 days to form a habit, so once I hit 66 days, I know it’ll be a fantastic celebration.
If anyone is interested, I highly recommend embarking on this path and seeing how you and your life changes. Keep me updated if you do!
Love,
Julia
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