The women before me taught me different versions of femininity. In these months, I have acknowledged my own hand in the destruction of my self worth and my own shadows. When I say ‘no’, it is not a sentence for you to test my boundaries with.
I am now laying belly down on the bed of my rented apartment on the island of Koh Samui, spending a few days here decompressing from Crystal Island before I head to Bangkok for two days to do some shopping and relax into city life and then moving onwards to Mexico. I sit here revising my photo roll, integrating all of this. Living in the moment is so beautiful and yet here I am, reminded that it is important to take some time to be alone and digest everything.
I learned to swim in the deepest depths of my soul...
In all honesty, I am not sure where to begin. I cry while driving or sitting in restaurants and cafes. I feel my heart breaking and rebuilding. I am chaotic and serene. I find myself in serious contemplating. Today's quote on my Momentum tab is: “The struggle you're in today is developing the strength you need for tomorrow.”
My first solo travel adventure turned destination quarantine in Thailand has led and is still leading to many adventures and lessons learned. Beyond the usual lessons of 'what/what not to bring', 'how to prepare for long term solo travel', and destination guides, there have been invaluable things I've learned about myself and, in turn, the world during these few months. I'm so grateful to be able to dive deeper in my understanding of how I perceive myself and the environment around me and the people that have assisted in my expansion.
